an unexpected day...

Well, Tuesday was a little bit of a crazy day. A and I were over at Nana B's for lunch and I was kneeling next to Tue toilet to help A on the potty. I felt a warm sensation and wondered if I had just had an accident. I stood up to use the toilet myself and noticed my pants were full of blood. I know immediately that something is wrong and yell for Grandma to come into the bathroom. I tell her that I am hemorrhaging blood and she needs to call 911 right away. Then I yelled for Grandpa to call J, and then my mom.

I was laying on the bathroom floor surrounded by so much stuff I assumed my water had broke. That thought seemed like a sure thing when the contractions started a few moments later.The paramedicsarrived and got me into the ambulance. I had asked to go to my regular hospital but they said because of the extreme amount of blood loss, they were taking me to the nearest hospital.

By the time I arrived at the er my contractions had gone from seven minutes apart to two and a half minutes apart. I was met by at least a dozen wonderful staff and within minutes the OBGYN was there ultrasounding the babe. He said it did not look like I had ruptured my water and what had actually happened was that a marginal placenta privia had begun to tear away from my uterus. I was so happy to hear that my water hadn't broke. J got there about then and was able to be brought up to my room with me.

They started me on a drug to calm down my uterus and stop the contractions. It worked really well. By the time my parents arrived the contractions had pretty much stopped and I wasn't bleeding anymore. A few hours later the doc said I could get my cath out. That was awful. And it made me feel like I had to go, so my sweet nurse let me try and I almost fell over from the pain. When I got back into bed I felt blood flowing again. And then the contractions started again.

They started pumping me full of that medicine again and it just wasn't doing its job like it had before. They did another ultrasound and baby still looked good, so doc said he wanted to give me an hour to see if the meds would work. After a while I told my nurse I felt like I would bleed any time I moved my upper body. She checked it out and said it wasn't blood anymore. All of the nurses and the doc were sure my water was leaking. Doc said now was the time to move me to a place with a N-ICU. And then things happened really fast.

Before I knew it the crew from the helicopter were in my room getting me ready for transport . Tubes everywhere... moving pretty fast... and yet I felt pretty calm. This can only be credited to the loads and loads of people praying for me. Because I probably should have been a hysterical mess. But I wasn't. I kissed my parents and told them I'd see them in a few hours. J wasn't with me at this time, he had gone on my orders to spend some time with our little A. But at this same moment he was packing up A and the dog to bring them to his grandparents and coming to meet me at the hospital in the cities.

The flight went really quickly. As we were landing I started having some serious side effects to all of the "mag" they had given me to calm down the contractions. The doc and nurses down here at ANW couldn't believe how much mag I had been given and immediately started another drug to counter all the mag. This made me feel better, but then the contractionsgot more intense again.

Before I knew it J's mom was by my side stroking my hair. It was really nice to have here there right away. She uad come with J's step dad and it was really comforting when he came in and gave me a kiss on the forehead. Kind of like he was there to protect me. :)

During this time the counter meds were doing their job and I was starting to feel a little bit normal again. They did an ultrasoundand said they didn't believe my water had actually broken. Now I really don't know how I feel about this, but either way, I'm not leaking fluids right now and that's good.

My besty was also here and just seeing her about made me lose it. She's been my best friend for more than half my life and having her here meant so much to me.

J finally arrived and my parents were about twenty minutes behind him. By now it was almost midnight so mom and dad found a hotel near by and J's mom headed home too. Poor J is trying to sleep on a fold out chair in my room. And I just can't sleep. They gave me some meds to help me sleep but it only lasted a couple hours.

I'm hoping they will let me eat in the morning. I've hardly had anything since Monday night.

The next thing we are waiting for is for me to be able to get another shot to help the baby's lungs mature. I have to wait until 7:30 on Wednesday night for that. Otherwise they are going to keep monitoring my contractions and the baby. If I did have to delivery now it would be a c-section because of where my placenta is right now.

In the morning I will head over to the perinatologist office I believe. I'll try to keep you updated as best as I can.

Thanks again for all of the love and support we are already receiving !