Should be sleeping...

The baby is sleeping, the husband is sleeping, the dog is sleeping... the house is quiet.

Big deep sigh.

I should be sleeping, but sometimes I love this time of the day/night where I can just have some me time. I'll pay for it in the morning with darker than normal bags under my eyes, but even though it makes me more tired, it sometimes refreshes me too.

I think in January I am going to ask around at church to see if anyone can recommend a babysitter. I was reading that I really am not helping A's separation issues by always having her with me. Apparently it's good for her to have to be away from me and then know I'll come back.

Not counting times when she's sleeping and I leave J here with her so I can run to the store or something, I'll bet I've spent less than 4 waking hours away from her. Just typing that makes me tired. I feel like a bad mom if I say I need a break for just a couple hours, but I think I'd be an even better mom if I got it.

But all of that said, I still wouldn't trade it for having her at a sitter all day. Even when I feel like I don't get much adult interaction or get out of the house much, I still would never trade getting to stay home with her. Time goes too fast as it is. I want to soak up all the time I can... I'll get a break when she starts school... Yikes! That's a scary thought! She can't even crawl and I'm thinking about her going to school.

Actually she is starting school in January!! For one hour each Thursday this spring we're going to go to the infant ECFE class! I am SUPER excited! I think it will be great for working on her social skills and I'll get to meet some other mommies! Next fall we'll be in the 1-2 year old class with M! Her mom J and I are excited about having the girls in the same class. M is 6 months older than A, so she's already in the 1-2 year old class. But next fall they can be classmates!